A very sad day

We had a very emotional day today when we went in to do an ultrasound to make sure the baby was doing okay. We found that the baby stopped growing at 6 weeks and they could not find a heartbeat. I don't think I've been this sad since my Grandmother or Dad passed away. I never would have guessed how it feels to miscarry a baby until now. How heartbreaking it was to know that all these plans we had made have now come crashing down. I was so thankful to have Kyle by my side and have his support. We have been through a lot over the last 10 years, and I wouldn't change one thing without him. I am so thankful for my family and the love they give me. I feel so blessed to have 3 wonderful children who give me so much happiness.

December 4th

We broke the news to our kids last night with a lot of joyfull tears of excitement. We are expecting number 4! All the kids can talk about is who's room the baby will sleep in, so Zach wants it to be a boy, and Kayla wants a girl. Erica is still oblivious, but this morning when I told Erica just the kids and I were going somewhere, Erica asked if Daddy was going to stay home and wait for the baby to come. I love it!